A ramblings of one girl

Freaking out under the cut.

I cannot comprehend the situation, really. I’m having a love-life, as like I’m seeing someone. And he  (he, yes, he, why I have male partner?) is something I have never encountered before. For the first time of my (28-years long) life I have felt like this, and this is really stupid. I feel like such teen-ager and at asme time I’m questioning myself about can this be even true and not some hormonal and/or mental trick my body is throwing at me.

I’m freaking out: this cannot last, and he can’t be as good as I see him be, and there have to be something wrong - because no-one feels “home” like he does. And I fear that one day I’ll wake up like: oh, you aren’t a woman, sorry I cannot do this.

I don’t know what to think, and I’m such ridiculously happy I couldn’t care less about thinking.